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i've been super tired lately. i guess that's a good thing to be busy. i actually got a full night's rest last night. ever since nathan's death, i'd be awake until 2:00 or 2:30. i was out for the count by 12:30 last night which felt good. this week, i moved back to md and so i have a bunch of boxes to unpack. i'm moving into my parents' old room. it's a GREAT space to work with: a walk in closet,coat closet, private bathroom, DishNetwork in my room, queen size bed, large windows with nothing but big trees as my view. lovely, right?

but...

1.) it's kinda weird sleeping in here by myself. it makes me think about my mom. and it doesn't help that the couch that we used to talk for hours and hours on is RIGHT in front of my bed. some memories i was able to push in the back of my mind and forget about them and since i really haven't been living at home since 2003, i've been able to keep them there. good thing is that my dad said that i could revamp everything and change everything to make it look the way i want to so that i'm not wallowing or reminded of stuff.

2.) there's sooo much work to do in here. memories upon memories equals clutter on top of clutter. so, it's now my job to go through everything and then revamp. so far, i've decluttered the bathroom. :) i still have a WHOLE lot to do though. but i figured it would be fun to post updates of my progress on my blog. i will be painting, sanding, decorating, you name it. so once i can get my hands on the funding for this project, i will start posting pics of my progress. :)

on a different note, i've been cooking a whole lot since i've been back and my sister has been loving it. tonight, i made roasted carrots and potatoes, fresh string beans that i sauteed in a little veggie broth and seasonings, and pan-fried salmon with sun-dried tomatoes in a lemon basil cream sauce. i made it from scratch and it turned out to be pretty good. my sister said she felt like this would be what she'd get at a really nice restaurant! that made me feel nice :) should've taken a pic of it. i gotta get on my camera game for real now. lol. gotta post all my suzy homemaker endeavors. haha.

and on my last note, i really miss my atl friends :( i saw them on sunday but it feels like it's been forever already. that part is a little difficult. i hate getting attached to people because then it hurts when i have to say goodbye. it's weird. i take it really personal. it's not even a bad thing but i take it as such. i have attachment issues...CLEARLY.